In a hot tub on a timber decking, I had a “defining moment” that I didn't like very much. It exposed me to others, opened me up, almost physically, and showed me something about myself that I hadn't fully realized. I was very good at hiding my emotions, from myself as well as the world at large.
As a mother, I was there for others: my children, my husband. Along the way, their achievements became mine. I was proud of them all, pleased with how they were all doing.
But my children were growing up, soon to leave home. My cozy existence was changing.